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so yesterday was quite humorous for about 1 1/2 hours. the rest of the time i was working or sleeping...both of which are not funny at all and id be offended if you laughed:) kk well i had to go and get my food handlers permit for sonic. ive been at this sonic for almost 8 months. so you can imagine how pissed my boss was when he realized that i didnt have my permit. oopsies. so i walk into the class and there is a line of ppl. well actually 2 lines. one for the espanol speakers and one for us white speakin folk. ya i went right to the front of my line. the other line held about 20 ppl with a geo full of ppl yet to come. after that i sat down at a random table to chat chit with myself about the ridiculousness of my situation. this lady came up to me and handed me a piece of paper talking about how to get a GED. haha i looked at her and said..."uh i graduated." she looked at me and rolled her eyes then snatched the paper back. i laughed because i guess they assume that everyone in need of a fast food handlers permit is in need of a high school education as well. i looked around and everyone else seemed to be reading the paper with some interest. so then they split the class up for the ingles and the espanol. i was forced to sit through an hour of this lady talking about how germs kill while trying to be the next dane cook. no one laughed though. hopefully she got the point. so one can imagine that i got a bit bored. so i was looking around and was checking out a few of the attractive looking individuals. one was a cutie ginger with gauges but prolly no more than 17. dang. the other one i was looking at was pretty caute i thought. that is until he stood up and put his bag over his shoulder which accentuated his boobs. ya oops.....twas a girl. you would think after a few years of distinguishing the sex of ppl id have it figured out. hmmmm. well after all this i got a little blue card with my name on it that the health department will not replace if lost.

$15 for 1.5 hours of my life ill never get back - priceless.

out with the old in with the new!

i have worn my plaid jacket a little over year on pretty much a daily basis. it has holes that have grown in it. it also has a sonic aroma to it no matter how many times it is washed. it is pretty much the most hardcore coat i have ever owned. i finally retired it and replaced it today with an exact replica but with an added on fur hood. my life is bueno at the moment:) RIP plaid jacket #1.

fallen leaf

something happens when you leave the world behind and find a quiet corner in nature.

something happens when you forget about your 60 hr work weeks.

something happens when you leave the worry of new beginnings and failing friendships behind.

something happens when you forget about other peoples worries and yours as well.

something happens when the sound of the city fades and the cold wind finds your hair and the colors of fall fall into your eyes and every breath is snow from the top of the mountain.

its something and that something is amazing. free therapy. to the next customer in line...middle finger raised. cause im in my corner of therapy.

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no worries...im just an insomniac.

its cold in the desert at night. my brain doesnt seem to shut off anymore. sleep isnt natural anymore. i have to force it with pills. but its too late for that right now. i will have to fall into a big pile of exhaustion sometime after dawn. thought after thought. school,family,religion,love,friendships. things that should be put away and thought about after a good nights rest. i will fall asleep and wake up to my continuing thought process. 

life is about making it what you want it to be. all the power in the world is held within each individual. we take the power we have and put it towards the happiness we think will bring us joy. i want to fix everyone i meet. i want to make sure their life is full of happiness before i move on to the next. money should not be a factor in this but it is. i want to be able to help those in need. i cant. i want to fix the world. i cant. i want to sleep. i cant. 

perhaps this life isnt about getting what i want. it is about learning how to help others in their time of need. i look at people around me....most of them older than me...most of them telling me how young and naive i am....most of them in need of  a smile and a chat chit. i will be the young and naive one to help them out. i will be the one to fix them and then move on to the next. 

perhaps the next hour will bring sleep.

the story

so life is turning out to be quite interesting lately. this is in no way a diss on you sieanne but when u were here i was comfortable just hanging with you. we didnt really get out much. but lately i have been getting out and actually meeting new people and hanging out with them. its quite exciting and somewhat of a new concept for me. haha im lame. so i got accepted to ldsbc. im pretty excited about that for sure. i feel like im trying to make something of my life again. it also means that my stay in SLC is gonna be longer than i ever expected. i thought a year was gonna b the max but itll b a bit longer now. so life is moving forward. im excited to see what happens for sure.

RAWR. that means i love you in dinosaur!

and a round of applause for sieanne. she made it in utah for 6 months and 28 days. its amazing how many experiences one can have in that amount of time. 6 months and 28 days can mean nothing in one persons life and everything in anothers. i think life is about living. mistakes will be made, love will be lost, friends will be made and lessons will be learned. congrats on a memorable time here. take care of yourself and mush!